Of course he said all that. He's in jail; lonely, hungry, worried you will find someone else and bored. If he didn't say all that would you have put money on his books or even on the phone again? Of course not. I'm sorry to say it but take it for what it is... jail talk. You can't spend your life waiting for him to get out. As for stringing the guy you may be in love with along, not fair at all. Take some time away and decide what you really want to do. If you are going to wait for Mr. right to get out of jail than wait. If not, move on.

That being said, I really feel for you. When a loved one gets locked up it can be very confusing. Keep the communication open and honest and try not to involve others in your situation when you are not sure what is right for you.

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Jami

It's my business doing pleasure with you!

so i put money on my phone for us to talk and money on his books and did a bunch of foot work for his attourney and highered a private investagator.... i went to jail for 2 days and one night fucken days and my friend had the phone (a guy) and they used the last of the money on the phone talking... then he left me hella msgs on my phone saying a buch of shit. saying he hates me and was just testing me to see if i was really gunna stay down for him and hella shit..... he says hes gunna kill me when he gets out and he regrets doing the shit he did that got him locked up. even tho it benifited both of us and just a bunch of shit omg... im hurting so bad and i love him soooo much.... i dont know what to do. im doing everything i can but its just not working.... his mom just tells me to stay if i think i can put up with it for the rest of my life or to leave if i cant... his whole fam loves me so much but im scared... i dont know what to do..

p.s. this is natasha010 just under A new handle.

I hope it's not.

So after you put money on the phone, money on his books, hired a private investigator and did a bunch of footwork for his attorney -

he was nice enough to call you - say he was just TESTING YOU and that when he gets out he's going to KILL YOU?!!!

I don't know about you - but this whole situation seems crystal clear from where I sit.

Of course his family LOVES YOU.

After all, you have provided financial support and done a lot of things for that young man that they obviously haven't.

You are making choices in your life that are causing you pain.

You may think that life just "happens" and that you are
"dealing with it" - but trust me - you ARE making YOUR OWN choices.

I made my choice to start providing erotic services in the adult entertainment world.

However, I enjoy PEACE in my life.

How is PEACE in your life possible when the people you pleasure and befriend in the adult world have a tendency to run to extremes?

Because I made a CHOICE to CREATE PEACE for myself and my little one.

My life outside my massage studio/playpen is very normal.

"Vanilla" if you will...

I don't smoke, drink or do drugs.

I came into this business via FBSM when my mortgage company collapsed and after sending out hundreds of resumes that detailed 15 years in federal and financial services and two college degrees and outstanding references - I COULD NOT get a regular job.

I looked at my child and made the only decision I could - I started advertising my "new" FBSM business.

I've since gotten my CMT, business license and have my own beautiful little massage studio offering not only thereapeutic - but FBSM with "extras".

Thank God for this business.

I make a good living 8am-6pm m-f and have met a lot of wonderful people.

I'm active in my kid's sports, Girl Scouting, school activities and have normal real-life relationships that maintain and sustain my sense of balance in this world.

You have no BALANCE in your life.

You must do what is required to attain and maintain BALANCE or you will never be happy.

Your mother is right.

You signed up for this drama and you will either stay and suffer the pain of remaining in it - or choose (no matter what it takes) to